Tuesday, September 29, 2020

Mother's Day

Mother's Day

A day to recognize the Mother's in your life

Everyone has a Mother,
Whether raised with them or not
Whether living or not.

A day to recognize what makes you a Mother

Your children
Whether with you or not
Whether living or not.
Dreams of being a Mother
Whether fulfilled or not
By birth or not

This Mother's Day I went to Church like normal
I worshipped and enjoyed the service like normal
I prayed like normal
I fellowshipped like normal
What wasn't normal is the ache of the missing in my 💔 heart

Don't get me wrong, 
I am so grateful for my children that are still here on earth 🌎. I am so blessed to have others in my life that consider me family. But, the missing of my precious Son and my Daughter'a Daughter my one and only Granddaughter is such a painful feeling. Praise God I have the promise from Him that I will see them in heaven. 

The Smallest Of Things

Amazing how God can use even the smallest things to show His love for us. I started a book and read that suffering a big loss or tragedy can make people question God. For me it has had absolutely the opposite effect. My relationship with The Lord has deepened in a way I never could have foreseen. 

I never planned on or expected to be breathing on this earth without my precious son. My children have always been such a precious blessing to me. I am one of "those parents" lol!! I drive them crazy taking pictures and videos of them. I am so grateful The Lord told me to treasure every moment. 

Tuesday, July 14, 2020

Pushing Forward

Pushing Forward

Sometimes life can be so hard.

I miss my baby boy so much.

Time is forcing me to push forward 

Oh but to feel his precious touch

I hear his voice when i say mommama

Even breathing i hear his breath

Life is now such a seesaw

I still feel him even in death

I want to hold his perfect hand.

Every step i take has memories of him
Help me to breathe.
Thank You God for so many moments to look back on

Everything i do has memories of him

 Finding Your joy while living without my youngest son.

Yes, i will push forward

but, my heart won't let me move on