I was chosen by God to give birth to a "Specially-Abled" Son that was named Bud William Hollis Muse. My life was changed forever. When they did Genetic testing, they told me "He wouldn't live past 2 and if he did, for sure not past 10, would be severely mentally retarded, severely disabled, a burden all his life". Now that he is in heaven I have to continue to live. This is one of my ways to be able to do that. Thanks for reading
Monday, July 17, 2017
Triggers, Deal With Them!!!
The triggers come from out of nowhere and take your breath away! Something as simple as opening a window, ugh!! First I can't breathe and then tears flooding down my face! "Lord, please help!" All I was trying to do was open a window! But, suddenly it hit me the window is behind the Christmas tree that I have kept up in the living room since before Bud's last Christmas here with us! I realized that I had not opened the window since the Lisle's brought us that tree in December 2014. It is a pre-lit tree that I kept the lights on every night for Bud to enjoy. I still turn them on every day. I have come to accept that those triggers are just part of the huge love I have been given being mommama to such a precious blessing from God. You can never prepare yourself for them, you just have to deal with them as they appear!
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