Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Been Here Before

Here I am sitting in my doctor's office again. My Doctor's office just happens to be in the same office where Bud's Pediatrician is located. Her office is also right across the hallway from Urgent Care, which is where I spent my last few moments with my son alive.
It brings up so many emotions.
It brings up heartache that he is not here with me.
It brings up anger for the fact that everyone involved or spoken to believes it was handled improperly and he should still be here.
It brings up Joy remembering bringing him in here to see his Doctor and no matter what we were here for, he always brought Joy to everybody he came in contact with. Even if it was just eye contact! But, he usually didn't settle for that!
Yes, I  have been here for what seems like a million times, but, my heart knows every time will never ever be like when I was here before with Bud.

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